Compulsion

I've had something in my head for a while and it's just sitting there, repeating itself over and over and over again. "You will never influence the world by trying to be like it." I'm currently sat here at 1a.m because I can't sleep and when I can't sleep, I write. But that phrase is all I can seem to muster, I think maybe because at the moment I am feeling overwhelmed. Overwhelmed in the sense that, I am having all of these creative ideas, am surrounded by so many creative people, and I just want to make my mark.

Lately I've been falling more and more in love with my Husband and all I want to do is make him proud of me, like I am of him. Of his drive and passion to always better himself, to be the best version of himself.

I'm trying to push myself, but free time is limited and I don't have enough go in me at the moment to squeeze every last bit of productivity out of my spare hours. Because quite frankly, most of the time, all I want to do is sleep.

My eyes are getting heavy - I fall to sleep.

It's now Sunday and it's dark again, my world forever moves forward without me noticing.

It's now Monday and it's dark again, my world forever moves forward without me noticing.

This is my life.

I started writing these thoughts on Saturday night, when my insomnia was overwhelming, it's now Monday and I still haven't finished. My life is so disjointed and erratic, having no consistency apart from work is sometimes draining. Life is full of distractions and emotions that pull my attention from one thing to another, so much that I've lost the train of thought I started this post with. So let's go back to the start...

Creativity. I have so many ideas and thoughts on a daily basis, so much so that I don't have enough notebooks to keep up. But those thoughts get constrained and suppressed because of work and sleep and life and not having enough minutes, hours, days. I love to write, I love to Photograph, I love to find new music, I love silence, I love being alone, I hate being alone, I have another thought, I don't have enough time. It's a never ending circle of thoughts ending with momentary remembrance of something I have to do or complete. I don't get enough sleep, the tiredness is overwhelming. I soak up inspiration on a daily basis from so many people and things, I am swimming in a world of amazing people who can juggle and manage their time so much better than me. I can't even find enough time to finish my morning cup of tea.

I need the tea.

Honestly, I don't even know what I'm saying. Maybe that I am really trying to be a better version of myself and that I'm not really reaching any outcomes, unless they involve searching things out in my sleep - my phone goes off, I get distracted.

My world forever moves forward without me noticing.

A New Adventure

As another month comes to an end and we enter the final third of the year, I wanted to sit here and reflect on life. At 28 I feel that I have achieved so much, but am yet to achieve what I truly want from my life. All I've ever really wanted is to be in a highly creative role. So I've decided that for the last part of the year and to set myself up for the new one, I'm starting my own business properly. I already have my brand, after extending my blog name to my Photography business. I've decided that I have all the tools to move forward and take a leap of faith in the background of my full time job. I have days where I am extremely un-happy and don't do anything about it, for my own well-being it has to stop. This blog is nearly five years old now and I have seen so many amazing girls follow their dreams and succeed in what they love and adore. I don't see, with enough dedication why I can't. So with the new year will bring a whole new chapter in From Gem With love and I really hope it pans out and blossoms. 

As Mr Emerson said 'Being yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else, is the greatest achievement.' I've also decided to take my blog in a new direction, I'm 28 so I feel my life and things I love and want in it have taken a more grown up turn. I live for food and interiors, so my blog will be moving away from fashion type posts. I will obviously throw in at least one a month, but I'm married, I want children, I like to cook, I don't drink, I prefer reading restaurant reviews and career advice. So my blog will focus more on these aspects. Hopefully I can refine it's design and stick with it, because I just feel it still looks mediocre and doesn't stand out.

Some of the girls I really admire are Stephanie for starting Chalk Kids, Izy and her amazing achievement with her new cookbook, Steph with her print shop, Joy and her outstanding brand Oh Joy! I could go on! So with a lot of thought, I finally decided that I will be setting up my own shop. It will contain a mixture of things, but mainly you will be able to purchase prints of my work. I'm super excited and can't wait to get started.


I would love some feedback on the idea and on what sort of prints you would all hang in your house or space. I'd also adore some feedback on things you love reading on my blog, what is your favourite type of post by me? Thanks so much for supporting me for nearly five years guys, I love you all! 

Boston Tea Party


Honestly? There aren't many places I like to go in Birmingham. I don't drink, so the night scene doesn't appeal to me...it's rubbish anyway. The shopping is Ok, but once you've been to the Bullring once, you've been a thousand times. The only thing we really offer in the Midlands, is a set of decent places to eat. Dale introduced me to the Boston Tea Party the day I passed my theory test, he found it on Trip Advisor and a new love was born. It's tucked away by the law courts, close to Aston University and it offers breakfast all day. Do I really have to say much more? You can get pancakes and bacon at any time of day guys! It reminds me of something you would find in America or London, it has a hint of Bills crossed with an independent American coffee diner.

I always opt for 'Sourdough Eggy Bread', because it has everything I love; Bacon, avocado, tomatoes and heat from Tabasco. I could eat it at any point of day and with it being a breakfast option, I can. Dey had a burger, they offer great options like Pulled Pork, Jerk Chicken and other combinations. Prices are reasonable, although I feel the juices are a tad overpriced.

The service is Ok, we felt that table service should be stepped up a little. Mainly with the drinks side of things. If you order tea and coffee, you have to wait at the end of the till like Starbucks and really I feel if you are ordering a whole tray of drinks, they should maybe bring them over to you. All in all the vibe is laid back and staff are polite but not friendly. They don't really make a lot of effort to talk to you, I guess because I work in retail I notice that more than anyone. Food is lovely though, toilets are clean and the interiors are amongst some of my favourites. It's a lovely place to visit if you're in town and after something different to eat, they have booths and lovely wooden tables to sip your coffee at.

Best part? They offer a Boston cup of tea...sorry I just had to (sorry if you don't get that un-Midland folk.)

3/5